Well 2 more weeks of holidays to go before school reopens. Yeah gonna meet my friends and enjoy my time in school when it opens. And another thing is 2 more weeks more to my pay and i'm gonna buy my new phone. I don't care about what people say about that phone whether it is good or not i don't care what i care is that i like that phone so i'm gonna buy it. Xpress music phone is my kind of phone because now music is lyfe to me and it runs in my blood. Well thats all for now i think. Hmm gonna meet my bro toddles.

Well back for more. What more to say. I'm not in a freaking mood to blog nowadays. First due to my tiredness from work and second is my feelings. There is lonely and sad person behind this smile of happiness. It has been lyke since the day. I tried to pick myself up to the normal person i am but it always fail somehow. Friends do help in someway but eventually i will fall one day. Just need somebody who really really understands me inside and out. But for what i know i will try to serve my lyfe alone for the time being. Will be gone for sometime to get myself back together and calm myself with everything. For what i know when the pay come in. I will pamper myself alone to sweets that i could anywhere lyke candy empire as i could say expensive and delicious and the same time. To me now sweets, chocolates and gummies are my way to pure luxury and happiness. Thanks to these sweets i will be ok hopefully one day......

Well just got home from gym and it is raining heavily here with thunder and lightning one after another. Just got some time to relax for awhile before going to work later at 4. Haiz just got to know that daddy will be away for an urgent job to kl for 4 days. Gonna miss him much and he pass down a responsibility to me to takecare of mummy for him while he is away. I will takecare of mum no worries ok dad. The sad thing is that i never get to say a proper goodbye to him. Only get to say to him to have a safe trip going and coming through a message on the fon. Well we will be waiting for you to return home ok daddy :-).

I'm gonna write a story about my fon 5300. It has been with me for 1 and a half year and it began to break down. Please 5300 don't back down on me now. Please try to hold for another 2 or 3 weeks before i buy a new fon. Remember the times u use to accompany me with music, the dirty things i use to watch on u which is kept secretly in the memory card, the messages which i kept in u and allowing me to have long conversations with my friends. And not forgetting the wake up call with the loud music which made woke up early in the morning when it is time for school or anithing. Please fon i really need u to hold on because u are the one which could accompany me for now. The loud blistering music u gave me will be cherish. Haiz without u now i can't do anything fon. Please hold on okie then when the time comes i will let u go on ur way. To handphone heaven i guess hehe. And a lot of thanks to the games which u let me play on u okie 5300. I will miss u much.

Well helo...well to me now a friend in need is a friend indeed. A good friend always help each other out right so here i am helping others with problems or need any company. I'm always here for anyone out there who has a problem or anything and think about talking to someone i'm always here not a problem at all just beep at my number. For the things which has been happening in my lyfe i realise that doing bad things is bad for our ownself and for others so for me now doimg good to others and making others happy is my happiness. A smile will lay down on my face wherever i am at. I may be red headed look lyke a typical boi but deep down inside if u really knows me inside out i'm actually a nice person which always have a listening ear and would make others happy not matter what and i will try to sacrifice my time for anything for others happiness.

Thanks for those around me all this while if u guys know who i'm talking about. I appreciate it for everything. I never been this happy without u guys. I will treat u guys to some wonderful food one day for my bro and the others i have plan something for u...

Help me!!!!!

I've been touched!!!! AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

Not being touched in a good way but in a seriously bad way understand. That freaking pervert manager touch me one again. In the places not to be touch especially by a guy haiz. He touch the front and back. And when he touch the front he turn around a gave a big smile to me. Which is not wanted at all okie u understand me u shit head. Come on u're married with 4 kids ok and u're just 33. If u want to touch go touch ur wife la alamak. Somemore see girls from the top till feet down. U're really a freaking damn pervert right. If u 're gonna relief the shop again i will really watch where u are so u can't touch me at all. Don't make me complain to the auntie again ok. I did it once and i will do it again u shit head.

Shit the manager which i hate the most return to my shop to relief for one day. Haiz hate that manager because last time he use to touch me in the parts which is not to be touched and he keep calling me boy?? Lyke what the hell. Come on i got a name ok it is AHMAD YANI and remember it by hard can't u see my freaking name tag and he keep showing his shitty face when i stare at him.

Well business was down today. For a saturday and business wasn't lyke normal is pretty weird but i think the reason that business was down for a weeks was because of the holidays and most people would be oversea right. Well at least i enjoyed myself working today. Went to bukit panjang plaza alone. Enjoyed walking alone hahaz. But one thing which i love most is my freaking red hair. I rock with my red hair. YEAH red hair freak!!!!

Today made a new record at work. I hurt myself at work not on purpose more then 3 times hahaz it is the best but became really really tired today. For no reason but i think it is because of my work.

Well a short update for today koz being so tired today. off to rest now.

Well today starts another day of work for 5 days straight. Have to earn alot of money koz plan on buyinh a new fon by next month koz i think my fon can't hold it and it is apparently giving up anytime now. Please hold it okies. Just till next month i will change u ok fon hehe.

Well plan on buying a fon and had told merul about my plan to treat them to eat at a nice place before their attachment for months and months to come and i will be alone by then with them working till late afternoon and i finish skol around noon or in the evening haiz. Hope i will have time to meet them by then.

And if hakim noes about the plan that i'm going to treat him and ameerul he would be happy right. Well been along time since i treat u guys to sumthing nice right. Well wait till next month and i will be loaded hahaz. It pays being hardworking sumtimes.

yeah finally i dye my hair yeah yeah. Dyed the colour dark copper red but the colour turns out bright is it is under a strong sunlight. Hmm every where i go just now everyone keep staring at me mostly at my hair. Why you people keep staring hmm??? It is weird for u people to see a boy with a red colour head hmm???

No right. Well this is the first time my hair colour turns out nice and managed to change my natural black colour. Think this is the last time i dye during my school time. The next time i dye my hair again would be after i finish my studies and after my ns.

Well thats all for today. Off to enjoy my new hair colour hahaz.

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeee finally defer my n.s hahax for another year yeah. Just have to wait till next year for the next deferment then. Hope if i get n.s i want to go to police or c.d more better and nearer than army koz for 3 months have to return and go back to tekong then somemore very far haiz. Waste time go far far u noe hehe. Well today had a very enjoying day with my wonderful friends my loving brother. I really spend my money on them and it was never wasted at all yeah2. At least they are happy and i am happy with them. They always make me hapi inside and out on matter what right2. Next month pay i treat u guys to a very nice place to eat okies koz u guys always eat there and here somemore before u guys leave me alone for ur attachment which is for months and months and me all alone then. Haiz nevermind i will survive. Hope to find somebody can accompany me at night or go anywhere haiz. Well what to do right. If i only got her number yesterday then things would be more easier now right2. Well next time ehk i got then send items from my shop if i see u then i get ur number okies. hehe...hope for the best then.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH SHITTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!

Damn tired sia after 4 days straight of work haiz. Shit2 never been this tired before hahaz. Well what to do right after a hard work everything will pay off sometime. Gonna earn alot and buy the things i really want to buy for a long time. Been planning everything what i'm gonna do. And finally cut my hair once more just because of getting ready for my new hair colour. Hope it will turn out nice hahax. Not gonna be the same after the highlight.

Well thats all for today gonna rest my legs haiz tired tired.

Wei!!!!!
Damn tired today after a day at work haiz. Woke up at 6.30 in the morning and work started at 8-4 today but it feels so so tired. Damn lunch time plus rain equals to a very busy shop but managed to handle everything today. Well of course old timer over there around 1 year plus so everything is normal to me. Right right. Well tomorrow is another at work for 3-10 tomorrow. Well thats all for today damn tired can't type.

Well helo peeps...

Hahahaz another of blogging for me

well today is about friendship and changes...

for me friendship in lyfe is important to us. Friends are always there to help us in times of need and when there are in need we are there to return the favor because a friend in need is a friend indeed and it is true friends which help them.

Ameerul and hakim- 6 years of friendship
safura-4 years of friendship
sharul and sabrina- 1 and 6 months of friendship
siti hasanah- 1 and 3 months of friendship

these people are the ones which are important to me in every way. i will cherish their friendship till the end of time to come. If i have enough money i will treat u all to something nice to repay ur kindness. Please remember who are important to u and cherish them...

Now about changes. I saw myself changing now into a better person now. I realise doing wrong is bad and doing the nice and good things are good. So i want myself to change into a better and nicer person now. I will open up my ears to anyone who has a problem and want to share with me i'm willing to hear them. But the one important thing is that i'm still the same old joker which is always disturbing others and making them laugh anyway i can. hahahz that's all for now.

YEAH!!!

Finally feel myself changing into the happy go lucky me once again. Yeah yeah!!! Hahaz. Thanks alot guys for helping me during my breakdown situation lately. Thanks to my music, anime and my games and ameerul, sharul, sabrina, safura and last of all which help me lots is hasanah and not forgetting my beary which always sleep with me on my bed. thanks beary. Hahaz. He always keep me company and one is that he really really smell lyke my room. hahahz which is smelly of course. Well now is 7.44am. Woke up at 7 today. During school and school holiday also wake up early how??? I also don't know la why hahaz. I think it is in my blood already hmm i don't know. Well later gonna meet ameerul in the noon then meeting hakim in the afternoon. Miss hakim alots and have so much story to share to him. My blood brothers!!! 6 years of friendship means everything to share!!! Hahahz

Its been a week since the break up thing and slowly i'm beginning to pick up myself back together again. I'm still sad about what happen because it is all of a sudden and i still love u tau till now. Even when u told me u got a new guy i still love u but now as a very close friend. I'm happy for u guys.
I'm always here for u when u need someone okie no worries and about the watch i will get if for u as an extremely belated b'dae aites. Well today is my first day of the holidays and i woke up at 7 today. Have a thought of going to causeway today to check my warranty card if is it still in use or not because this damn fon is getting worst than before. Haiz please survive till i get enough money ok fon. U are my hope please. Ok fon??? U always accompany me at night with music or games.
Hahaz.
Well pay will be in this saturday. Hope i will get above hundred. Gonna buy my contacts and dye. Gonna change myself no longer the same person i'm use to be. No more repeating the same mistake over and over again. Want to say thanks to my close friend siti hasanah for changing me for the past year. U took care of me really properly and i really really thank you from deep in my heart. If there is any way i repay u back for ur kindness??? Hmm.. Well normally i don't really care about others or myself. Especially with studies. I really don't care about passing or failing last time but now i'm change right after u change me. And now i'm on my own. Gonna do whats right for me and not the wrong things in lyfe.
Well thats for today.
And close friend...please study hard for u n level okies don't play play or fool around. Same with ur guy okie. Takecare of him :-). I'm happy for u guys. Hehehe. Anithing just msg or call me. U noe where i'm right and my hotline u noe right hahaz. Okies then toddles!!!

Woke up at 6.45am today haiz. Yesterday slept at 9. Been sleeping early nowadays. Normal ehk???
To me it is not normal. I'm the one which normaly sleep late but nowadays been different. Sleep early but woke up in the middle of the night and look at fon. My fon been really really quiet. Feels lyke throwing my fon away so nobody can find me or anything so being alone is better for me haiz. Been having so much problems lately and just have to cope with myself with no one to talk to and having some split attitude changes. Been happy, mad and sad all at the same time. Because i hate being alone!!!! Shit mother fucker!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just wanna scream my head out or rather die then keep everything wrong haiz....

Just lost hope on everything nows.

Well of to dig my grave now.